grinds my gears

when..they are in the need to be told to stop, when it's too much, when there needs to be a flow, when the only solution is time.

i trust in it. i trust the time that needs to be made up. i trust GOD.<3
i'm not harsh sounding it's just what really needs to be done..on the real.
just give me a second to get used to it.

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i'm so glad to have my cousin in my life. i don't know what i'd do without her. we go through so much together. it might now be the same situations, but we end up getting closer everytime we confide in eachother. if one of us falls, the other one gets picked up. mostly because we're both a klutz.

though we sometimes don't want to hear the truth from other people and it hurts, i'll never get mad at her for actually telling me. and if it was someone else, i would probably need some time to know that you were right. i find it such a blessing that even when she first moved back here in jersey two summers ago, i was afraid that we wouldn't get along. because they've been away for almost 10 years. i was afraid that we wouldn't compatiable because our childhood. even though we did get still keep in touch when they were away, it really clicked the first night they moved back.

and if one of us gets hurt and it might seem that i will automatically be Team Jess (no bias) i just always would let her know that i'm always there for her and i'm blessed to have someone like her. my best cousin sistah frend, as she would say.

she never fails to make me smile. even if it's not intential =P


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i'm learning to be Youtube savy. i might even start doing video blogs, but not post in on youtube, just here maybe. coz i do get tired of typing. you know just to switch it up a little, don't take my idea, ya heard?

i told you i'm smiling a lot more. it feels good. especially when i perform. i just feel so relieved that i got a chance to show God that i'm really trying to learn from my past. and God instantly is showing me signs to know it will be alright.

and so i found a new inspiration. he reminds me of what i have because what he has currently going through, which is by far the biggest test he has ever had. i could never compare...hopefully not yet. he's positive. and it sheds off to me so easily. i'm getting to know what it really means now. and it's growing.. he called me special.

...like retarded kind. (he's kidding, i hope.)


tomorrow's finally the weekend!! the only difference in this weekend is e-town on saturday. i don't wanna make it too hype tho. haha. i just wanna know what the lesson is going to be about, and hopefully it'll give me more hope. not that i'm losing any.

oh yeah and see friends too. =P

i'm waiting for my hair to get long, my gah. taking forever.

so i was reading previous blogs..and damn i coudlve sworn i wrote more. but i though to myself that "did i really write that?" it doesn't sound like i would. you could surprise yourself when youre really in the spirit of writing something when youre really inspired.

bunnies.