"Just like a video game,

God allowed us to have misses."

it may have seen that i was hiding something, or i need a sign, or of guilt to tell me, i needed to change. like needing to repent. i admitted to HIM that in my performances i wasn't feeling anything, wasn't mentally prepared. wasn't giving my all.

God blessed me in so many ways, even at the start of this year!! which explains how excited i get. =)
but i forgot one thing..to Thank HIM. after all that HE's given me already, i forgot to give some back. i forgot to show HIM that i wasn't distracted. I forgot to sing like it was my last. I still have my duty in 2010. After all that I have, the least thing i could do is dedicate. <3

so HE sent an angel. Sis. Charina, our choir leader gave a testimony to us today in practice. at first, how she started it, i'll have to admit i got a little offended, but realized that she was right. tears ran down my face. all i could do was look down in shame. and i could feel her eyes looking at me. she felt my pain. speaking to the whole choir,
"even if one person is unprepared, it might hinder the Holy Spirit"
she was right.

the Holy Spirit was there in choir practice. i told HIM i was sorry. <3