no words can describe

of how truly blessed i am.

i try so hard to be the one that the people in my life are talking about.

im always hope for "yeah that's my girl!"

but.. i dont have to TRY to do anything. just be me. they're proud of me no matter what. still having them in my life is already a blessing as it is. i know now that they think about me a little more. my devotional prayers have never been so great. i mean, that's the power of prayer. and recently, worship services have never been so beautiful. you can already see it...the change.

i never would never expect my family or friends to think i think like this. i'm usually the one giving them advice. but i'm telling them this because i learn from THEM. <3

i recently reunited with Stephanie. oh man, i've missed her. i seriously thought she forgot about me. every 10 sec of yesterday and saturday night, we're thinking " dag, me and you have come a long way." so many good times with her. and i'm so blessed that i haven't gotten in ONE fight with her.

my mom. she's so strong. this is her biggest test she has gone thru by far. she's hanging in there. she's just relaxing. she'll be on her feet again. my dad, i don't see him that much because he works two fulltime jobs, but when i do see him around the house i always let him know i miss him.

my maynard. i'm STILL so blessed to have such an angel in my life. little arguments only make us SO much stronger. it may be silly and miss him even more when we go thru little argues, but we only do it coz...well coz we love eachother. =') and i learned so much by being loved by him. i'm so lucky to have him all to myself. =P

my brother. oh WOW! he grew up in like a month. he never looked so old to me after his first...week of college. LOL becoz he came back for labor day weekend. i felt like he grew taller, or his voice got deeper, or his vocabulary changed..something. LOL!

auntie dar and the babies. ethan and chelsea are walking to me at the door..and i just start crying cuz i missed them so much and see how much theyve grown gets to me.

i look foward to family reunions this winter. <3